🧚🏾‍♀️🎨🕊BEARTHDAY Love letter to my inner child! #hehehe

I couldn’t sleep last night. I wrote the Love Letter below to myself and my wounded inner child, wounded no more! Well, still recovering, but oh so radiant and excited for growth in this NEW LIFE!

I wrote the letter as the clock struck midnight, just serenading myself with whatever came to mind from my heart…because I needed love…self-love. I needed RECALIBRATION~

A lil’ backstory:

I had a mental/emotinoal breakdown tuesday, 3 days before my 27th birthday aka saturn return 🤪⚡️. 27 years of anxiety, self-neglect, dullness and depression I didn’t know was depression weighed H E A V Y on me. I had a doctors’s appointment that way to figure out some health things and i just felt like everything was falling apart.

ON TOP of that I decided last minute to throw an open birthday and fundraise. I don’t regret ANYTHING about this decision but this was like a final tipping moment for me of this kind of behavior. 27 years of procrastination and a state of “limbo”! After 27 years I was brutally met with the harsh reality that I had curated for myself. In essence I was met with MYSELF…I felt how much stress and pressure ive been puttong on myself for so long, operating in ways that never really served me. What once was unconscious coping mechanisms for safety and survival as a child now faced me head on as a severly wounded adult-child. I have been overwhelmed by myself and by my environment since I was in utero!! I thought and felt:

“Aww…little Jazz…you poor babe….its ok!!! you are poor no longer…you are SOOOOO loved….so taken care of…so ABUNDANT and VIVACIOUS…!…”

Anyways…I’m officially exhausted, from this week and beyond; I couldn’t get to sleep last nite until 6am. I was buzzed from an amazing day at of volunteering at Ecstatic Dance LA where I forced myself to get out of my bubble and met the most amazing new friends(and some folks I’ve wanted to connect with for awhile but just was in a funk 🤷🏿‍♀️)! The downloads/uploads I was receiving were RICH AF! I wanted to put the pen down but my will commanded it. I’ve had trouble with my will up until now so I allowed it to express itself. AND IM SO GLAD I DID CUZ BABY…..THESE DOWNLOADS THOO! I’m SO happy to share them with you!

I still have to go out and find myself the right bearthday dress so I’ll leave you to feel the love letter below. I share these intimate truths to encourage you to do the same: When was the last time you wrote yourself a love letter TO YOURSELF?

hehehe…LUV YA BABES!!!!

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HAPPY STRAWBERRY FULL MOON IN CAPRICORN>>>Be ecstatic, yet remember to be tender with yourself as well.

pps.(cuz we extra 😛)

If you resonate with any or all of these words and those below please feel to reach out!

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EMAIL: radiantjem@gmail.com (hehe, I just made this email today. Fill my inbox with luv if ur feelin amorous 😛🔥💗🧚🏾‍♀️)